hallelujah, what a savior.
hallelujah, what a friend.
halleulujah, king forever.
we thank you for the cross.
Last night, I shared my testimony with my staff - the people that have become my best friends over the last month or so. It rocked. Seriously. Last year when I shared mine, I was shaking and crying and so nervous about opening up about all the baggage that I have. But since then, I've learned a few things about the Lord and a few things about how He sees me and my story. So to say that I was excited to share last night is a bit of an understatement.
After I shared all that the Lord has done in my life over the last 3 years (I've really only been a Christian for that long. What?), they prayed for me. They laid hands on me and really and truly prayed for me.
Let me tell you something about myself. I cannot cannot cannot handle it when people pray for me. The very idea that someone would approach the throne of God on behalf of me and my baggage and my junk and my worries and my happiness and my blessings totally overwhelms me. What an honor it is to be prayed for and to be able to pray for others. I didn't cry until I was prayed for.
I'm not sure what it is, but the Lord knew that I needed some extra doses of encouragement this week. The words I've heard, the notes I've received, the prayers I have felt, the hugs I've been given, the kindness that's been poured out, all of those things have encouraged my heart more than I can explain. It is a pleasure, an honor, and a privilege to be so delicately and deliberately seen.
I never prepared the blog for this before (I'm so dramatic, lol), but I had a doctor's appointment on Friday and I talked to the doctor about putting me on anxiety medicine. I had decided that I thought that was a good idea and through talking through things with her, she agreed. I started my medicine Sunday. She said it would take a week to see any changes. I'll keep y'all posted. I wouldn't mind prayers there. I'm excited about the Lord's healing in regards to my heart and head.
Also, there's a mission trip to Seattle in December through AU. I'm never totally 1000% sure about anything, but I'm pretty dead set on going. And by pretty set on it, I meant I'm ecstatic for it and Lord willing, I'll be in Seattle in December. I'll be sending out support letters for that because without support money, I could no way go. And not to give myself a plug, but email me if you'd like a letter (cause to be honest, I'd like your money <3).
Alsooooo in the last 2 or 3 weeks, I've been Etsying my life away. Posting and making and trying to sell. I've learned a lot about myself, about my potential, and about my likes and dislikes through having an Etsy shop in only a few short weeks. Another plug: if you wanna visit my shop, you can go here: Brocha Designs
I feel like this is all sort of just word vomit, but really, my heart is so full these last days and I'm not sure how to verbalize all of that well. I have felt the presence of the Lord, heavily and super evidently. Before, when I've always said that I love this season, that was a lie. I didn't know love then. But I really, really, really LOVE this season. It is good and I rejoice in that.
One of the major parts of sharing my testimony was Ephesians 2:4-7:
But God, being rich in mercy, because of the great love with which he loved us, even when we were dead in our trespasses, made us alive together with Christ—by grace you have been saved— and raised us up with him and seated us with him in the heavenly places in Christ Jesus, so that in the coming ages he might show the immeasurable riches of his grace in kindness toward us in Christ Jesus.
Those first two words have convicted me a lot, a lot. But God. I was a sinner, but God. I thought I was fine, but God. I was hopeless, but God. I couldn't fix myself, but God. I didn't do anything right, but God.
To make me righteous, God sent for me. He gave it all for me. He has done this. He intercedes for me today. He considers me worth it. He gives life. I needed help, so God. He is here and He is love and He is good. He is so good. I am immensely, immensely blessed.
Sorry for the jumbled thoughts. I can't properly express all of the incredible things I feel. Thank you, Jesus.
hallelujah, it is finished.
hallelujah, it is done.
hallelujah, king forever.
and we thank you for the cross.
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