Biblical Over the Emotional

So this morning I need to talk about something that Perry laid on my heart yesterday in church.
I never realized before that I was doing this to myself, but I put a whole lot of worthless value on my dating life. I try to justify for the wrong type of guys way too often. As Perry pointed out, it's a dangerous trap when we put the emotional over the biblical.

Many times, we justify for our relationships because we think that we can't let go of how ____ makes us feel. "I would like a man like the men from the Bible, but ____ makes me feel so good."
This is jacked up, twisted, wrong, immoral, and sinful. We have got to, got to, GOT TO stop putting ourselves on the back burner. God would never want us to walk in a way that wasn't glorifying Him. So why do we think that our relationships are any different? What the heck?

I wish I could tag someone in this, hahah. But that wouldn't be the very Christian thing to do. We all have our flaws.

But how did I get to this point? I always look at people in relationships and think "they are so stupid. I would never let a guy run me over like that. I would never give him all that control." But that's exactly what I do.

Ladies, we need to stop valuing how these guys makes us feel and rather seek what is biblical. Adam pursued Eve. Since the beginning of time, efforts have been made by Man when he really wants something. Stop fooling yourself into believing that you can change him or that he'll come through sometime.. if you just wait long enough. God will bring the right man to you in His time. Trust His promise. Genesis 2:18 says "The Lord God said, 'It is not good for the man to be alone. I will make a helper suitable for him.'" This is the first account of God saying that something is not good. God earnestly believes that man and woman are meant to be united.
God isn't out to get us; this isn't a game of who performs the best will receive the best. God wants the best for each and every one of us. His heart isn't malicious and He isn't keeping score of sexual, mental, physical, or emotional rights and wrongs. I'm preaching to myself here.

He simply loves you. He adores you. He created Eve and as He was forming her, He knew that she would cost Him His Son. He knew that she would cause trouble for Him. But He still went forth with her; He still pursued her. So if Eve, the introduction of sin into the world, is worthy of God's pursuit, what makes us think that we aren't?

Ladies, we are precious and adored. He has crowned us in righteousness. Take off your sinful cloak and begin walking in what the Lord has for you. He is much more worthy of our praise than the serpent. He loves beyond measure and He wants the best for us.

Prayer Time: God, I thank you for your love. Thank you for your living word. I thank you for the stories that can teach us, even thousands of years later. Thank you for clothing us in righteous. Thank you for loving us, even when we feel so, so unlovable. I pray for hearts of women around the world today that are feeling forgotten or unloved. I pray that you intercede on that funeral and you pull these women into all that you have for them. I pray that we wait on you, God, because we know you are faithful. I pray that we seek Godly men, rather than comparing our men to God. Help us to follow in your paths and walk in your glorious light. For it's in Your Son's precious name that I pray, amen.

Keep On Keepin' On

My life is a zoo, haha.

I'm about to lose my head. School and friends and God and papers and speeches.

Thank God that when I'm so flaky He isn't. The only thing that is helping me get through ANYTHING is knowing that He is constant. God is working in the midst of my trial and my craziness.

One thing I'm kind of going through lately is dealing with a friend that isn't a Christian. In God's divine timing, evangelism groups started last Wednesday night, so I am learning more about how to minister to people that are different than me. But it's freaking scary, if I can be honest. It's hard approaching that. I know that God will work regardless of how well I "witness" to others, but it is intimidating.

Anyhow. With this person, I see their burdens so, so clearly. This person's life breaks my heart because I was there three short years ago.  I have changed so much since that, PRAISE GOD FOR THAT. So it is hard to watch said person go through life with Jesus.

Prayer Time: God, I pray that I would boldly proclaim Your name. I pray that you would give me confidence, wisdom, encouragement, and understanding to do Your will. Thank you for your love and mercy. God, that You would even pick me to speak to someone about You blows my mind, so I pray that you would just be glorified in that. Thank You for trusting and loving me, even when I doubt and leave You.

By the way, my car is dead and gone :(

God is still good.

Luke 12:25- "'Who of you by worrying can add a single hour to his life? Since you cannot do this very little thing, why do you worry about the rest?'"

Ephesians 3:20-21- "Now to him who is able to do immeasurably more than all we ask or imagine, according to his power that is at work within us, to him be glory in the church and in Christ Jesus throughout all generations, for ever and ever! Amen."

Woah, my life.

Man, it's been a whole week! This has definitely 

been the craziest week of college yet.

Ever get that feeling like you're drowning? Like there's no way you can catch up? Yeah, story of my life.

I'm not even totally sure what to blog about now, because I feel like so much has happened. So I'll just ramble, bear with me.

I definitely felt the weight of college this week. It's been assignment after assignment after paper  after speech after test after book after reading. It's been the week from Hell, no doubt.

Something I kind of dealt with today was a very humbling experience. I was freaking out about my tuition payment. It was supposed to go through today and my money wasn't in my account. All day, I was so stressed, waiting on my parents to deposit the money.

And then I hit a hard reality. Brenna, do you really have that little faith that you're going to count God out like that?

Yeah. Ouch. I kind of suck a lot, haha. But really. God would not call me to something like Anderson and then bail out on me. If He wants me here, He'll provide in every way possible. I took a look at myself and I was forced to ask my, "how can you have such small faith?"

When big things come, when things that don't really pertain to me happen, it's easy for me to say "God has a plan. He'll provide. Don't stress." But when something big is happening to me, I freak out. 

I have no doubt that I cause God some migraines. Probably daily. How is it that He loves me still?

So I'm working on that. Working on have a bigger, less shallow faith. Working on staying around to see His kingdom unfold before I get so caught up in mine. God is good, all the time. All the time, God is good.

Prayer Time: Dear Lord, I just want to thank you for all that you are and for all that you're making me into. Thank you for loving me, the so unlovable one. Thank you for mercy and grace and for forgiving me when I doubt you. I know you'll provide. I pray that you help me to rest solely on that promise. You are good. It's in Jesus' name I pray, amen.

ANDDDDDDDD here's some pictures to catch ya'll up on the last few weeks of my life-