I woke up on the wrong side of my twin size bed this morning. Tangled in sheets, hot, drooling, aggravated from last night. Looking forward to my Saturday, I subconsciously made up my mind that staying in bed all day would be ideal.
As I considered what to do with my day now since it would be being spent alone, I decided on lunch alone and dinner alone. Showering doesn't even sound too appealing (I'm still in bed. and haven't showered. Whoops?). The more I thought about my circumstances, the more aggravated, frustrating, and mad I got.
Of course, because I'm a girl named Brenna, I needed to rant. I ranted to anyone who would listen: Mom, Lindsey, Allison, and Twitter (#mylifeisajoke). And then God totally grabbed my heart and so put me back in my place.
Suddenly, I couldn't focus on my bads anymore. Through His ever-present-though-often-ignored-by-me love, God hit me with my blessings, my goods. I'm seriously the most blessed person in the world. I have a mother that adores me and is honest with me when I need to hear it, friends that are content with letting me rant, encouraging friends that make it their goal to comfort me, best friends that care for me and will fight for me.
Why was I ever in a bad mood again? It's hard to look at the face of God, realizing your blessings, and be mad at the one thing that He is putting you through. It's especially hard when you know that that one thing is only to help you. It's to make you less dependent on your relationships and more dependent on the only one that can save, ever. It's to make you step back from going-going-going and step into His peace and His love. It's giving you a heartcheck.
We have to stand firm in the love, blessing, and grace of our Father, even in the midst of trial. Don't forget that God is good. When our relationships fail us, God is good. When we feel so alone, God is good. When we fall to sin, God is good. When we idolize things other than God, God is good. When we forget Him, though He never forgets us, God is good.
I can't stress to you enough how important it is to take the good with the bad. Don't forget that the Savior of the whole world is yours. He is chasing after you, desiring you, begging for you to turn to Him.
I often get wrapped up in my circumstances, forgetting my place and my call in the world. Even through it all, God is good.
2 Corinthians 1:3-7-Praise be to the God and Father of our Lord Jesus Christ, the Father of compassion and the God of all comfort, who comforts us in all our troubles, so that we can comfort those in any trouble with the comfort we ourselves receive from God. For just as we share abundantly in the sufferings of Christ,so also our comfort abounds through Christ. If we are distressed, it is for your comfort and salvation; if we are comforted, it is for your comfort, which produces in you patient endurance of the same sufferings we suffer. And our hope for you is firm, because we know that just as you share in our sufferings, so also you share in our comfort.
Prayer Time: God, thank you for loving me when I am so, so, so unlovable. Thank you for your grace and for showing me mercy. Thank you for friends and family that step in in the midst of the darkness to shine Your light and to keep me on track. God, I praise you for what you're doing in my life. I know that everything I am going through is not because of any accident. Thank you for the everlasting cross and your everlasting love. It's in your Son's name that I pray, amen.
Stop dwelling on your circumstances. God is good.